Feeling down
I should be feeling somewhat happy... I mean, I've been stressing about assignments that I handed in about ten days late... and I managed to get extensions for everything. Plus, Network Magazine is off to print and should be out next week. Yet here I am, feeling like there is something missing. Today, I stood around in the MUISS office feeling totally lost. I still can't quite put my finger on it. I think it's a feeling of inadequacy. Everything is going along, but nothing is progressing to an excellent standard. I should be able to concentrate more on uni, or more on NLC. The truth is, I just want to be able to do an excellent job with everything, and I feel that I am just barely scraping by. I got two of my assignments back today - HD's on both, but I know the ones that were handed in late this week were really very substandard and that It's going to skew down my average drastically. That's not good if I'm going to apply for an internal transfer at uni.
And NLC? Well, that again is problematic. I guess I'd like to be able to inspire everyone to get off their asses and do something worthwhile for the international students on their campus - I wonder why nobody cares, sometimes.
It's draining. Sometimes I wonder why I bother.
And love? Well, I'd be lieing if I said everything was fine. When he's here, it's the most beautiful sunny day, or the most tumultuous of storms... but when he's not, it's a cloudy, somewhat chilly day - neither here nor there, and I'll be feeling this way for the next few weeks. Very blase.
On a more positive note - the adbusters have done it again, this time choosing the Picnic commercial at Malvern train station as the victim. Check it out:
And NLC? Well, that again is problematic. I guess I'd like to be able to inspire everyone to get off their asses and do something worthwhile for the international students on their campus - I wonder why nobody cares, sometimes.
It's draining. Sometimes I wonder why I bother.
And love? Well, I'd be lieing if I said everything was fine. When he's here, it's the most beautiful sunny day, or the most tumultuous of storms... but when he's not, it's a cloudy, somewhat chilly day - neither here nor there, and I'll be feeling this way for the next few weeks. Very blase.
On a more positive note - the adbusters have done it again, this time choosing the Picnic commercial at Malvern train station as the victim. Check it out:
