4/13/2549

multicultural or rootless?

I've been feeling down again, despite having my best friend constantly supporting me.

We came to a conclusion that the reason for my feeling of 'not belonging' anywhere is a direct result of being uprooted all throughout my life. The 'not belonging' applies not only to cultural roots, but also to social groups. I've not only been uprooted from countries, but uprooted from friends all my life.

The implication is that I just can't bring myself to become close to anyone truly.

Ofcourse, the clear plus side is that I TRULY understand and can cope with the fact that all things are transient, almost to a farcical extreme... I can't bring myself to believe that anything is permanent!

And naturally, that means that I have trouble with the concept of the people around me being permanent.

Whatever,... I think the conclusion is that I really should seek counselling!!! :P