The deep end
Personal:
Missing that extreme thing… a lot. I feel so lonely without that presence in my life, although I really shouldn’t be admitting that =) Maybe I'll take a weekend off sometime soon to soothe my heart.
Politics:
I just started and already I've developed a distaste for this. I’ve always wanted to believe in a world where people are intrinsically good, where, at heart, people only want what is best for humanity. Haha! How quickly that dissolves in politics! Or perhaps they still do want what is the best – nobody can agree on which road to choose, and compromises in ideals leads to political war. I'll stay optimistic for now, and assume that everyone just wants what is best. Fine, call me naive...
Kinda personal, somewhat political:
Back to the main point – which is that I hate not being able to trust people. I’d like to hear somebody say yes, and actually mean it. It’s like the moment I’ve become convenor, there is a little veil that comes up between the world and me. I mean, why is everyone so polite all of a sudden? Why are my friends keeping their distance? Why is it that I can’t think of anything but politics? My identity is gone, and all of a sudden I am nobody but Ms. BC. I guess it’s just an adjustment period, and sooner or later I’ll find myself again. This transition is just taking way too long! It’s so difficult when I just can’t wait to get started properly (once elections are over!) and I’m not sure where to go about starting the project.
Missing that extreme thing… a lot. I feel so lonely without that presence in my life, although I really shouldn’t be admitting that =) Maybe I'll take a weekend off sometime soon to soothe my heart.
Politics:
I just started and already I've developed a distaste for this. I’ve always wanted to believe in a world where people are intrinsically good, where, at heart, people only want what is best for humanity. Haha! How quickly that dissolves in politics! Or perhaps they still do want what is the best – nobody can agree on which road to choose, and compromises in ideals leads to political war. I'll stay optimistic for now, and assume that everyone just wants what is best. Fine, call me naive...
Kinda personal, somewhat political:
Back to the main point – which is that I hate not being able to trust people. I’d like to hear somebody say yes, and actually mean it. It’s like the moment I’ve become convenor, there is a little veil that comes up between the world and me. I mean, why is everyone so polite all of a sudden? Why are my friends keeping their distance? Why is it that I can’t think of anything but politics? My identity is gone, and all of a sudden I am nobody but Ms. BC. I guess it’s just an adjustment period, and sooner or later I’ll find myself again. This transition is just taking way too long! It’s so difficult when I just can’t wait to get started properly (once elections are over!) and I’m not sure where to go about starting the project.