11/04/2547

Things that screw with my head:

1. People
2. Philosophy
3. Inconsistency
4. Tram tracks and dark water
5. Closet doors

I shall now seek to address these issues, as obscure as some of them seem.

The first one is obvious. People. Why? I am generally not very set in my own views - rather, I refuse to be, and I try to keep an open mind as much as humanly possible. This has it's flipsides. I generally do a pretty good job of building on my picture of the world based on what I find from people, but sometimes this gives me too much to do, or views conflict, and I have to sit around thinking of what I should prioritise and internalise.

This brings me to the second point. Philosophy. Very useful tool in figuring out what's right and wrong, but I honestly think it is causing me irreversible brain damage.

Inconsistency. I can't claim to be someone who picks a theme and sticks to it, but for some reason, I feel that others should. I know - unfair, isn't it?

Tram tracks and Dark water - my only two phobias. I have this feeling about trams, and it's not a good one. It's linked to the fact that a tram can not deviate off it's path. So, for some reason, my brain automatically assumes that it is also unable to stop, except at designated places. It's a monster of automation, and we are all helpless before it's bug-eyed gaze. Once I meet those eyes, there is not a chance in hell that I'm crossing the road until they have passed me by. Strangely enough, I don't mind sitting in one, though... Hmm... dark water. Fear of the unknown. Don't like swimming in it.

Closet doors. They bug the hell out of me. Don't ask.

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Ok, perhaps it's time to address some 'real' issues in my life now. I am staring at this screen in blurry-eyes bewilderment, trying to focus. The more tired I am, the more blurry my eyesight will get. Considering the amount of sleep I've been getting in the past three weeks, I'm surprised that I haven't gone blind or had a black-out by now.

Yes... so I moved house over the weekend, which, by all rational standards is not a smart thing to do in the middle of examination period. Rationality is over-rated anyhow.

I get along really well with my new flatmates, and Jay from Mumbai is particularly helpful and concerned that I settle in well. He even knew what NLC was without me having to tell him! Philip from England seems stoned most of the time, although I doubt this is the case. Both nice 'blokes'.

Two exams behind me, and five days of studying to go before I have two more exams. I don't think I'll survive another philosophy exam. This one nearly killed me - I am quite sure of it. I think I need to report directly to the funeral home after the next one. I think I'll even get special consideration for missing the drama exam on the following day on the grounds that the examinee 'is unable to attend due to forseeable body bag'

Hmmmm...

p.s. You know who you are... I can't wait to see you! Only six more days to go - You better be treating my supercamel right, or I'm not going to be very happy when I get there! I'm sure he'd get along very well with your fish... try sticking them in the tank together and see what happens ;)

p.p.s. If you are reading this, 'S', I went and enrolled in English lit... screw economics, I'll hate it anyhow! I figure I'll do better for myself in life if I stick to what I know I love and am good at. Thanks for the nudge in the right direction :)