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Wasn't there a better solution?
I've been plagued by this question for days now... I've lost track of how long...
When one is free, there is no force on this earth that can force one to do anything against one's will.
There's no log in the stream. There's a choice that is made at some point to become that log in the stream. There is always a choice. And when things screw up, there is nobody to blame but oneself. But then, I'm not saying that any one of us is a super human that is able to predict all the ups and downs in life and prepare accordingly. All I am saying is that NOW, when those important decisions are to be made, the easy way out is choosing not to fight, and saying 'There's no choice'.
There is no choice = 'I do not want to fight'
Do I want to fight? Do I want to fight if I know my allies have deserted me? Do I want to fight if I know at the end, the very thing I fight for will not be mine anyhow? Is the principle enough, or must there be the reward to keep me fighting?
one more question: ทำไมคิดมากเกินไปวะ??
I'm feeling so down right now that I don't seem to have the will to do anything... I just called my teacher and cancelled my Arabic lesson for today. You know that feeling when you should be crying, and yet, you are unable to?
It seems that the older I get, the more difficult it is for me to deal with hurt... It used to be something so superficial and incomplicated... very straightforward. Things get more complicated, and guilt comes into the picture, even where it isn't necessarily called for.
I just received an e-mail from my friend, Simon Reames, saying that his father, Nick Reames just passed away... I remember him fondly from my days in Kazakhstan, and I'm sorry to hear of his passing away. It must be tough for Simon.
I've been plagued by this question for days now... I've lost track of how long...
When one is free, there is no force on this earth that can force one to do anything against one's will.
There's no log in the stream. There's a choice that is made at some point to become that log in the stream. There is always a choice. And when things screw up, there is nobody to blame but oneself. But then, I'm not saying that any one of us is a super human that is able to predict all the ups and downs in life and prepare accordingly. All I am saying is that NOW, when those important decisions are to be made, the easy way out is choosing not to fight, and saying 'There's no choice'.
There is no choice = 'I do not want to fight'
Do I want to fight? Do I want to fight if I know my allies have deserted me? Do I want to fight if I know at the end, the very thing I fight for will not be mine anyhow? Is the principle enough, or must there be the reward to keep me fighting?
one more question: ทำไมคิดมากเกินไปวะ??
I'm feeling so down right now that I don't seem to have the will to do anything... I just called my teacher and cancelled my Arabic lesson for today. You know that feeling when you should be crying, and yet, you are unable to?
It seems that the older I get, the more difficult it is for me to deal with hurt... It used to be something so superficial and incomplicated... very straightforward. Things get more complicated, and guilt comes into the picture, even where it isn't necessarily called for.
I just received an e-mail from my friend, Simon Reames, saying that his father, Nick Reames just passed away... I remember him fondly from my days in Kazakhstan, and I'm sorry to hear of his passing away. It must be tough for Simon.