A time to kill...

Sick.

Meetings.

Not fair.

Want to present doctor's certificate to whole of Victoria and show them my middle finger.

Vote however the hell you want, dammit. Break off into your own little factions and sign deals with whoever the hell you want and see if I care. It might make life more interesting, after all.

No. Just kidding.

And why is it that in particular when I am sick, everyone wants to go out drinking with me? I bet you, when I start feeling better, all my friends will have forgotten about me.

And as if there wasn't enough shit, now I have to go and visit the Egyptian embassy tomorrow because apparently I need a visa to go there. Honestly! What's the purpose of holding two passports if I can't even travel wherever I want without a visa? I haven't needed to use a visa in years now!

Need to write reports. Panic. Panic.

Tranquility of politics

*sigh*

It's great to finally have all asignments and exams out of the way...

It's great to have visited some old family friends out of town (who have a mega-cute little girl called Tia who is three and says "NO" to everything)

In just a little over a month, I'll be in Thailand, playing with my two nephews, niece and my wonderful little puppy, Alba.

All I have to worry about now - politics. And hey, that's a holiday, compared to having to juggle uni and NLC all semester. Besides, I figure I'd just get bored if I didn't have at least that to do...

You know, after a while in student politics, I must say, you get bored of all those coffees - then you start taking walks in parks and examining bugs on benches with factional representatives while trying to work out a deal... quote of the day "I think that's the larvae of the oak beetle... hmmm... so back to the budget..."

Sigh... laundry awaits at home... as well as the whole sandman series. Will read them all (again) this week.

Will attempt to do laundry.

May work.

Should probably also eat something today.

Hmmm...

Oh, yes, and better burn those Antonio Carlos Jobim CD's before I have to return them.

My my, sounds like I've got a whole list of resolutions for this week. And it's a week that promises to be very exciting, indeed.

Did I mention that there is a bit of a cold war going on right now? I'm looking forward to those military missiles to start firing. Should be fun.

assumptions

The old saying goes "to assume makes an 'ass' out of 'u' and 'me'.

It's interesting how wrong data can stir shit up. Someone out there is a real chauvinistic assumptious chicken-shit ass.

Need I say more?

The gods are with me

It seems as though being respectful to the gods really has benefits (I equally respect icons of all religions and ways of life, as long as they stand for the good of humanity, even though I am a buddhist)...

They have come to my aid in an NLC situation where things could really have gotten sticky failing ability to contact just one or two people. I find I don't need these people to succeed as long as I am willing to do a little work... this is something I've been discovering increasingly often ... when others are unwilling to help, things work out by fortunate coincidence.

...and today was just perfect... thanks for this day, my dearest, I had a great time with you. The best part is that this day isn't even over yet, and we've got more smiles awaiting us :)

Summertime... and the living's easy...

Gershwin, anyone?

I'm in a very Gershwinish mood today... enjoying the ... internet... on a nice sunny day... and most importantly, on a much needed HOLIDAY!!

Can't say I have too much to report... just chilling. Few emotional upsets here and there, same old, same old.

Doing literature next year. I must be a total idiot. Going quickly down the path of becoming a starving writer... but hey, I love writing, and following my heart can't be a bad thing, can it? Considering that I was offered a scholarship to study writing at a university when I was just 14... that must mean something... why have I gone and forgotten all of that?

I have a few bids here and there... study economics! Study marketing! Study law! It all leaves me feeling somewhat hollow. I know I'm probably just basing all of this on my preconceived notions. However, based on my experience at uni so far, I've flat out refused to do anything that I do not enjoy, and have done very poorly on those subjects upon having to force myself through the syllabus. Besides that, the subjects that I do enjoy suffer, because I have to put in a disproportionate amount of study time into those vilified subjects.

Philosophy and literature... perhaps a double major. Sounds excellent. Most of the best fiction writing in the world stems from themes that are philosophical by nature.

I'll be working on my story that I wrote when I was 13 and got me that scholarship to study at a university when I was 14, and posting that on my blog in the next few weeks, so keep your eyes open...

Things that screw with my head:

1. People
2. Philosophy
3. Inconsistency
4. Tram tracks and dark water
5. Closet doors

I shall now seek to address these issues, as obscure as some of them seem.

The first one is obvious. People. Why? I am generally not very set in my own views - rather, I refuse to be, and I try to keep an open mind as much as humanly possible. This has it's flipsides. I generally do a pretty good job of building on my picture of the world based on what I find from people, but sometimes this gives me too much to do, or views conflict, and I have to sit around thinking of what I should prioritise and internalise.

This brings me to the second point. Philosophy. Very useful tool in figuring out what's right and wrong, but I honestly think it is causing me irreversible brain damage.

Inconsistency. I can't claim to be someone who picks a theme and sticks to it, but for some reason, I feel that others should. I know - unfair, isn't it?

Tram tracks and Dark water - my only two phobias. I have this feeling about trams, and it's not a good one. It's linked to the fact that a tram can not deviate off it's path. So, for some reason, my brain automatically assumes that it is also unable to stop, except at designated places. It's a monster of automation, and we are all helpless before it's bug-eyed gaze. Once I meet those eyes, there is not a chance in hell that I'm crossing the road until they have passed me by. Strangely enough, I don't mind sitting in one, though... Hmm... dark water. Fear of the unknown. Don't like swimming in it.

Closet doors. They bug the hell out of me. Don't ask.

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Ok, perhaps it's time to address some 'real' issues in my life now. I am staring at this screen in blurry-eyes bewilderment, trying to focus. The more tired I am, the more blurry my eyesight will get. Considering the amount of sleep I've been getting in the past three weeks, I'm surprised that I haven't gone blind or had a black-out by now.

Yes... so I moved house over the weekend, which, by all rational standards is not a smart thing to do in the middle of examination period. Rationality is over-rated anyhow.

I get along really well with my new flatmates, and Jay from Mumbai is particularly helpful and concerned that I settle in well. He even knew what NLC was without me having to tell him! Philip from England seems stoned most of the time, although I doubt this is the case. Both nice 'blokes'.

Two exams behind me, and five days of studying to go before I have two more exams. I don't think I'll survive another philosophy exam. This one nearly killed me - I am quite sure of it. I think I need to report directly to the funeral home after the next one. I think I'll even get special consideration for missing the drama exam on the following day on the grounds that the examinee 'is unable to attend due to forseeable body bag'

Hmmmm...

p.s. You know who you are... I can't wait to see you! Only six more days to go - You better be treating my supercamel right, or I'm not going to be very happy when I get there! I'm sure he'd get along very well with your fish... try sticking them in the tank together and see what happens ;)

p.p.s. If you are reading this, 'S', I went and enrolled in English lit... screw economics, I'll hate it anyhow! I figure I'll do better for myself in life if I stick to what I know I love and am good at. Thanks for the nudge in the right direction :)