sad things....

To someone I was chatting with earlier today (and who I think doesn't read my blog anyhow):

If you want to love someone, you should say it before it's too late... and even if that person doesn't want to love you, you've lost nothing by being honest.

One thing I can't understand, though, is a bitter heart. Why would you hate me because I can't love you?

Enough said... negative vibes... sensing them and not liking them. Let's get back to being friends soon!

Pictures with my best friend should cheer me up! She kisses me a lot!!!







Plus... I got a new watch today!!

Super Kitsch @ Co-Cue

A clothes store? Well... super cool clothes there, indeed... but hidden away on the second floor is a rickety old chair and a old dresser... and a super-talented Hong Kong scissors-man!

It all began when P'Sally said her old friend Amos was coming back from Hawaii after a long stint there... and he was willing to shear peoples' hair!

I think I lost about half of my hair ... but I'm loving the new style!


Before


After


Kan is shocked... but...


....P'Sally and I are happy!

Totally cool!

Can't wait to get back to Melbourne...

On certain recommendations, I am to move closer to campus... which totally ROCKS, because I'll be moving in with none other than my darling best friend, Sarinda! I hear the place also has a swimming pool (which will serve as a good place to dump drunk friends in the winter months).

It will TOTALLY rock living with him! We had a rather happy exchange of e-mails a whie back:

Sarinda: What will the neighbours think with two hotties living in the same house?

Fon: And not only that, but they both are not available and NOT seeing each other! They'll be flabberghasted!

*** *** ***

Oh and Sarinda.... just so you know... "There's a really hot Sri Lankan guy living there" is NOT something that convinced me to come and stay there, you egotistical b****!

For anyone who is waiting for a drink with the "ex-Queen", please note that I shall be back in Melbourne somewhere between the 10th and the 15th...

The original plan was to return on the 15th, but there are various factors, from MUISS to 'a top-secret flight mission' that are drawing me back earlier!

Anyhow, now that I'm going to be living closer to 'the community', I've decided that I will start having a regular weekly Tuesday or Thursday night dinner, for anyone who wants to come over (bring your own drinks, though!) and relax (and be dunked in the pool).

We'll see how that works out....

Aside from feeling as if I've been on holiday long enough already, I AM really enjoying myself here. Family is always good to have around, and watching the kiddies grow is amazing!

I've been spending a lot of time in Suan Luang, too... here's a pic, took it myself!

Some pics

Tham Boon Khuen Barn- religious housewarming

It's been a while since I've been blogging... been going around the country - first to Koh Samet, then to Chiang Mai with my mother. It's great... she's not exactly young, but she'll live long, because she has such a young spirit, and such a young way of doing things!

Just got back yesterday really early in the morning, and spent the day with Kan (we sent his sister to Polo, took a walk in the park, saw "Khao Niaow Moo Ping", and went shopping for today's "religious housewarming")

So today is going to be a busy day... I woke up at seven to make "Kaeng Jued" and "Hed Horm Pad" for the monk who will be visiting the house today. It's been two years since my brother's family finished building this house and moved in, and today they are finally having it 'blessed'... Thus, I have dubbed this event a religious housewarming.

After this, there is going to be a party here - but not a housewarming... Indy, Inc and P'Kuu's joint birthday party! I'll get to take a lot of pics with the kids!

I'll have lots of pics to upload later on!

A challenge...

I asked for help brainstorming and I got help - we'll work on becoming more abnormal later

Setting: Rain (someone's thinking of me :P)

Topic: Aircon (someone's not very creative)

Ok.... so I've given myself a challenge... to write a story with the setting being rainy day (perhaps on the beach (since that's where I'm going tomorrow)... and it must involve the aircon.

Sounds like fun. Thanks for helping me brainstorm, Kan (btw, have fun in HK) - we'll see what creative powers the aircon could possibly hold... I'll have Sand around for inspiration... or maybe he'll just steal my pen if he doesn't want me to write, but wants me to play instead!

old hands

My grandfather's hands are old, and he struggles to lift a boiled peanut from his right hand to his mouth with his left hand. But I, his granddaughter, cracked open the nut and offered him into his soft wrinkly hand, and I can tell he wants to show that he's still ready to interact with the world, even though his wife passed away over a year ago.

He doesn't speak much, and a lot of the conversation is limited to whether or not his food tastes good...

He loves to eat.

We visit him often. I can only hope that when I'm 90 (if I live so long!), I'll have children and grandchildren who visit me and make sure I'm comfortable in my old age.

On another note... I'm off to the seaside again - this time to Koh Samet (Samet Island), with my mother, my brother (P'Ed), his wife Sally, and their son, Sand. After that, I'm coming back to BKK, but heading straight up to Chiang Mai with my mother. So I won't be back in town until late on the 21st! And until then... no internet! Aaaargh!

Family time :)

sleep? what's that?

Is it in the blood? Or in the upbringing? Whatever it is, I sure as hell am not a day-person at all. I just spent the entire day today grumpy due to lack of sleep... and now... I'm not sleepy at all cos it's night!

What to do?

Play video-games! That must be the answer to everything in this life! (Atleast I hope so...)

Steve keeps complaining that he never makes my blog, so here we are... I've decided to mention that I took my mother to meet Steve at the Pathumwan Princess this morning, and they talked business... as well as gossipped about me right infront of my face!

The rest of the day I spent with Kan... we went to see Narnia (NOT WORTH IT!!!!) - Get the BOOK!!!

After the movie (which is basically bible studies in disguise - King Arthur meets Passion of the Christ meets Noah's Ark), I had this inextinguishable urge to drink Sake (go figure...), which suited the plans perfectly, cos we were eating Japanese anyhow!

Anyhow, totally unproductive day, but relaxing anyhow, I guess, despite my grumpy episodes.

Oh and by the way, if anyone who actually reads this blog happens to know Farhad and know his whereabouts... His wife is REALLY REALLY worried about him! :P

I shall now go continue with Shadow Hearts Covenant (game)... Will try not to be up all night.

Yeah... right... ?

Waiting...

...for something that may or may not happen, and not sure how i'll react, either...

meanwhile, feeling restless and losing sleep. It's like being in an airport terminal indefinitely


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Lessons in waking and dreaming

Last night I dreamt...

Some time in the future, I am sitting at a table having dinner with a group of close friends... and I notice that they all have kids and family... but I'm the only one who doesn't...

Then, I am walking into a tailor with my mother, and she is getting some shirts cut... She asks me how come I no longer design my own stuff and get it tailor made like I used to.

I said I didn't think I was really good and that I wasn't going to make a career of it, so I may as well just give up.

I woke up with a realisation. A lot of the things that I "had to give up" in my life, such as wanting to set up a restaurant, singing, ... anything I've been good at, really, hasn't been because I've "had to". It's because I've chosen to.

And why? Because I'm scared of 1) not being the best, and 2) of becoming good and losing everything.

Where did this come from?

I think because I used to want to be a ballerina, but when I started becoming good, my ankles failed me. I wanted to swim seriously... and when I was at my peak, winning competions, I injured my knee and couldn't really compete anymore.

A few childhood scars, I suppose.

So, back to the lesson in the dream. It started off with people settled down with families... Well, the message is clear... unless I choose something... some path... for myself, I'm going to end up alone and with nothing, no matter how many great ideas I have.

.....

But on another note... I had a far more tangible lesson today during the daytime. Kan was teaching me to drive in Muang Bolarn! Hopefully I'll have a driver's license by the time I get back to Melbourne!



Muang Borarn


the water is rotten, man!


Kan bowing?


Woohoo!!!!


Watch out, mad cow!!

I know nobody cares...

... but I can't sleep and I have an incredible urge to play tetris... I've been incredibly hooked on Lumines on PSP, and my high score is at something like 113,000 thousand+, but I've had enough! I want some good old fashioned tetris! Thank the deities for the internet!

You bastard!

You know who you are! STOP KEEPING SECRETS FROM ME!!!!!

AAAAARRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!

Belated Happy New Year

Spent my New Year's in Hua Hin away from civilization... just chilling at the beach condo with Mae (mom) and Isa (dad), P'Oad (older brother) and P'Fon (his girlfriend)...

So... what new year's resolutions have been made around the world?

I didn't think of that this year... All I did was make a promise to one of the people who is very close to me... a promise to always be there for him! I guess that's a pretty tall promise already!

We'll see how that works out, huh?

I think a promise made to a friend is stronger than any new year's resolution I could ever make.

Cheers to that!